firstly.ive thought of it for a long time.i lived for myself.not for others.thus.im not going to live in the shadows of others and im going to stuff that i think its right.stuff that im comfortable with.not things that ppl THINK is right.this is my life.i have the right to live it the way i want to. i need NO ONE to tell me what i shld do to my life.NO ONE is to tell me whats right and whats wrong the way i deal with relationships.ya.thats the way im going to live my life.
secondly,yesterday before i slept.i suddenly thought of my sec 3-4 eng teacher.Miss ONG QUEE HONG.hurhur.i dont noe why i missed her so much.keke.anyway.i think she looked like Irene Ang.i still remember how i knew her.
i was in the canteen (when was in sec 1 or 2),she suddenly came up to me to tell me that its wrong to go into relationships at such an early age (i was alr with ky).tts it.it simply left me crying.ive no idea why she knew.but again.chestnut is small.news travel fast.
after ive gotten my O'lvls results.she alr transfered to bedok sec (which is nearer to her hse).i didn expect tt i would get B3 for eng.she helped me lots.i e-mailed her to thank her.but nvr recieved any replies.i wonder how's shes doing.
i remembered my whole class hated her.sometimes she would just suffer from PMS and vent her frustrations on us.we hated her lessons after her previous lessons with the N/A cos it will normally result in her fuming mad.and thus venting her anger in our class.i remembered her being VERY VERY sacarstic .so much so tt u just wanna kill her.but she's nice.she's good.
i often e-mailed her my own written compos.and she'd marked dem and gave it to me.maybe tts why i could get B3.oh ya.i think she loves sex.
i remembered my grammar sucked.there will be so many "g" beside her marked compo.i remembered i loved to write "would" and she hated it when i wrote tt.so.she told me something tt made me nvr write would again.
"i would if i could" ..for some reason.i stopped writing would.
aiyah.dont noe lah.dont noe why i miss her so much.grr.
thirdly.sch's reopening soon.i will not have so much time as compared to now.cos i really need to start mugging soon.yup.soo.i wont have so much time for ky.hurrmm.so, we can only meet up again once a week again. :(
i thought to angad ytd.he was my cdss senior and also ac senior.hes either 3 yrs my senior or 2 yrs my senior.i forgot.i asked him about his a levels results and if he mugged like hell during his year 2.he told me he wasted he june hols. i told him that i slacked too much in j1.and now im dying.he told me something aft. "Thats the story of all AC students"
i suddenly rmbered that im part of AC aftall.ya.ac din teach me anything good.but taught me everything bad.im glad tt i'll be graduating soon.in less than 6 months time. the time in ac was hell.and its something i'll nvr ever want to go through or remember again.nothing gd in ac.tts wad i would say if someone ask me to decide which jc he shld go.definitely not ac.anywhere.not ac.unless u want to have a taste of frigging lousyy teachers who are so unconcerned about you.who only think of the good of sch.who keeps asking u to win bloody useless decorative metals in some competition at the expense of ur studies and retaining u aft that.unless u want to have a taste of mean ppl in ac.where u are nto able to find a single true friend.where friends are only concerned about their own stuff.ok.nuff said.AC IS NOT GOOD.i dont care if some ac admin stuff pple are going to chance upon this blog.i dont care.this is wad i feel about you!u suck!...zzz.wadever.
anyway.im bored.and todays the last day.tts why im so free to think and write about nonsense.
aiyah.dont noe la dont noe la.
anyway. i love ky :)
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Friday, June 24, 2005
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
SOOOO FUNNY :)
ok.i shldnt be mean.and be nice to u since im PU.
hm.u look fine!!! except that u cant smilleeeee..and u cant take photos anymore!!!!
lalalal~ ok.i shldnt be mean.see.im so nice to u.blog entry specially for u eh. hurhur.
but im wondering wadd i shld eat for dinner later...um.chicken wings? umm..crepes? NY? fish and chip? umm...anything but not MILO and CAMPBELL soup.
wahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahah.ok.i shld stop laughing... *points at heidi* wahahahahahahahahahahaahahahah
heidi ho.u noe i love u right?
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
and when one is attached.it doesnt mean that they cant have any opposite sex friends. their friends can onlybe of the same sex.i think this is rubbish.
i believe and i strongly believe that as long as one doesnt um.hold hands kiss hug when one is attached,he/she is still being faithful to his boyfriend.i think both the individuals in the couple should deserve their own privacy and their own social circle.
i love my friends.i love both my guy friends and my girl friends.i love xiang.xav.ben.jere.vincent.hengkiat.melv.wesley.shawn.raymond.all guys from sec 5N of weixiang's batch.Alfred's batch.and my own batch from cdss.i love dem.very much.it doesnt mean that when i say i love someone.it must be of the bgr love.i think this is childish.if this mindset truly holds.omg.i have many boyfriends and i'll be doing a big mistake to ky.my real bgr boyfriend.
i love my boyfriend ky very much no matter what happens.no matter how many guys friends i have .
zzz.i think this is stupid.really stupid.im attached.but i need my own friends.
nono.this blog entry is not cos something btw me and ky happened.dont worry.we are happily attached and we are planning our wedding soon.erm.ok.tts not real.
anyway.ya.im grateful that u came into my life.i wont deny that u helped me like tonnes of things.im grateful for ur presence.really.thankew. u shld noe who u are.this blog entry is a reply of our messages.
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
she doesnt use her brain to think b4 she speaks and she doesnt even noe the truth b4 she even open her damn bloody mouth.she has no idea how fugly she is. and she has no idea how irritating she can be.not that im any better.but still.
give me a knife and i will kill her right now.at this moment.maybe aft i do that, i will kill myself too.
i tot she was nice.i tot she dont bitch.i tot shes the kind of girl who doesnt backstab.wow.what a suprise i had!i've no idea what else she wants to do.i've no idea what scheming plan she has in mind.ive no idea if im in the her list of ppl-to-harm.
i dont noe what rubbish she is going to say again.
tt's why i always say,i dont need friends because u'll nvr noe which friend will harm u .cause u more misery .too many friends give u headache.
but im glad that ive sandar,heidi and crystal.they are enuff.
i was in the lib today.and i was photocopying stuff.i suddenly tot of heidi and crys during o levels time.all of dem wanted us to be good and to excel in Os.heidi tried her best to get sch prelim papers from her church friends becasue they were mostly from rgs blah i think.crystal tried to get prelims paper from her pri schmates too.but they were nvr selfish.they not only kept the papers for themselves.they made extra copies for the rest of our clique.i rmbered i had so many prelim papers tt i need to do a paper a day for each subject before i could complete all of dem b4 Os.but now.hurhur.let me tell u the tragedy.
i have friends NOW.who tell me that they have papers.erm.maybe not papers but references and notes blah from their umm friends or seniors.damn them.yea yea.hao lian somemore! sucky friends.and they still have face to KEEP IT FOR THEMSELVES.nvm.i have my means of getting dem.lalala~ shittty ppl in ac.
ermm..sorry!im not having PMS today.i just damn pissed aft hearing wad i shldnt hear . ya. i think friends suck.really.argh!
cant wait for the sentosa outing tmr.ok.maybe i shldnt bitch too much.
before i go.I WANNA KILL TT FRIEND...ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH.FUCKING SHITTY BITCHY SLUTTY FUGLY STUPID DUMB BLOODY ASSHOLE.oh btw,shes a girl.
ok.sorry for all the vulgarities.argh!
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Monday, June 13, 2005
ok.u noe wad.i think im getting more and more bimbotic.hurhur.and i think there's nothing wrong.hurhur.really really.see.my bimbotic acts again.
ive known Margarita The Mexican Restaurant for about umm.a year or so.and I've worked there for ummm.about 2 months.hurhur.and today is the FIRST time im actually a customer there.but many things have changed.Kimi quit.my fave dish-washer auntie has quit and they have recruited MORE guys.damn.but they were so-so lah. as if im damn pretty.
ok.back to the point.umm.i was quite disappointed cos the brownie has changed and the turtle cake has changed even the way they served the take-away nachos has changed.and damn one small bloody box cost me about $18 ++
the brownie used to look damn nice,damn big (ive nvr tasted it during my times when i was working there) .ya.but the one that i tried today..umm.u noe.wasnt up to standard and in fact it looked like "nian gao" .the turtle cake looked strange and it was okok only.
but the main dishhh..omg.its ever so enticing and soo soo sooo soo palatable and sooo soo sooo frigging nice.
okok.my recomendation.try FAJITAS (pronounced as faa-hee-tas) .erm.there's chicken and beef.but i preferred the chicken one.its damn delicious.u are supposed to wrap the chicken or wadsoever that u ordered into the tortillas given.omg.it tasted heavenly.
i ate Chimichanga.chicken as well.tt was my fave when i was working.i nvr fail to order chimi when i had my dinner when i was working there.
the drinks.hmm.dont order the soft drinks there la.just not worth it.$3 for a damn small cup.but the Sangria was niceee.delicious in fact.its alcoholic.ya.but its nice. *yum* it cost $8 per small cup la.most of the drinks there are alcoholic and they are pretty ex.
ok.in total, i spent $110++ there.how frightening.for just one dinner.hurhur.
oh ya.i almost forgot . the ambience there eh..i would rate 4 out of 5 .damn good for dating couples.but the place is abit abit ulu la.its at clementi.
oh.pls pls go try out the food there yea..
ok.enough about food.oh well.i think i can blog alot about food eh.hehe.theres tut tmr.damn.so borrrrrriiiiiinnggggg...and theres ac party today at gotham penthouse and i MISSED IT!because of some impt reasons.hurhur.
ok.i need to get some beauty sleep alrrrr...good nite peeps. :)
ohohoh.forgot to tell u all my erm short term ambition.i wanna work in clubs aft a levels :) ya.crystal.i noe u are prejudiced against ppl working in clubssss right?! but.i wanna try it out.i wanna make concontions for people to drink.and ya.i adoreeee night lifeeee .hehe.
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
to miss someone u cant have.
ive no idea what to blog about.
but i just need somewhere to vent all my frustrations,all the shit im feeling inside.
i want to chill.
but im just too lazy to get out.
i did something on wed.i went running on sch tracks.
cos i was on the verge of breaking down i guess.
i wanted to run.so i could sweat everything out.
im such a dumb bitch.
let me forget u.teach me how to forget u.
u dont care. u dont even know.
ok.i think im done.i dont feel any better.nvm.
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
im vulnerable.
i dont noe what to do without you.
dont ask me to find my own happiness.
cos i wont.
i just need you.only you.
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Monday, June 06, 2005
 Cancer - Your Love Profile
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Your #1 Love Type: INFP |
| The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ |
Your #2 Love Type: INFJ |
| The Protector In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls. Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself. Best matches: ENTP and ENFP |
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
| Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
| In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
like real.but i tot the first one is quite true..as in the one above this paragraph.and im not afraid of marriage.i just dont wan to marry so early.i would love to get married :)
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Friday, June 03, 2005
a year and half ago,in lt1, weikong commented that my notes was damn pink.
i hope hes recovering.
a week of consecutive studying.am feeling freaking stress alr.it has been a long time since i felt this way. A levels is less than 5 months away.and i think im too late.i dont think i can complete everything before the a levels.too late.all is too late.there is soo soo much to study.damn.i hate sch.i hate studying.i din feel this way when i was preparing for O levels.i could do most of the ten yrs series questions by this time.but now i cant.shit.
anyway.i have a new ambition.
that is to marry a filthy rich hongkie.he must provide me with a mountain hill of hongkong dollars for me to shop like mad.he shld bring me to hongkong on an average of 10 times a yr.thats not alot right?
hm.i think i have someone in mind.XAVIER HO JIA XI.he is a hongkie.he is damn damn filthy rich.has nothing but moneyyy..and he goes back to hongkong often.yay!
but i think hes not the right choice.he has rina and i think they are more compatible.ya.so i must look for a new guy.besides xavier ho is NOT a good guy!he does nothing in sch but bully me.the only nice thing he will do for me is to tell me that the zip of my skirt is not fully zipped.zzz.how perverted.ok.
new hongkong guy!yay!
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