dance is my life.is it yours too?

Thursday, July 28, 2005

though i know she wont be able to see thisss..but still...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ERM..FUTURE MOTHER-IN-LAW :) kekeke

yay!i love birthdays.

okok.one more.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEARESTTT ERRRRRRR JIEEEEEEEEEEEE.I LOVE ERRRRRRR JIEEEEEEE :)

Ok.happy happy.joyjoyjoy.yay!

anyway.i really really really want to be a fashion designer.or.just open my own boutique.anyone wan to give me a shop as a birthday present.

I danced.I sang.
9:00 AM

tired of everything.
lei le. :(

I danced.I sang.
3:58 AM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

ive so much to say.so much.

i feel so much.but i dont noe where to start.

maybe all these will be left unspoken.

they will always be there till the day im gone.

im crushed.badly.

ive fallen.

i dont noe how to pick myself up.

i hope theres angels around me right now.

so that they will hear my prayers.

so that they will help me.

so that they will help me find the 101th.

hurt me.so that i'll nvr stand.

so that i'll never have to go through this again.

if im a poet.i'll pen all my thoughts.

if im a singer.i'll sing my feelings.

if im a mathematician,i'll create an equation to represent my pain.

but im nothing.just a plain me.

all i can do.is to tell you.

that im not feeling good.

dat im hurting.

that im crying.

i thought those times would last for a lifetime.

like what you promised.

but they didnt.

they were gone.as fast as the wind.

and they will nvr be back.again.

i want to go.and nvr return.

i want to share my happiness with people.

but they dont feel it.

still,ive so much to say.i dont noe where to start.

cos i dont noe when it will end....

I danced.I sang.
10:42 AM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

ok.laugh at my flat boobs.non existent boobs to be accurate.

I danced.I sang.
10:51 AM

maybe this is nicer.

I danced.I sang.
10:47 AM

cos im the only one.

I danced.I sang.
10:43 AM

do birthday wishes come true?
i dont think so.at least for mine.

i think im some cheapo bitch.
who is so unworthy and useless.
i should deserve nothing.
no love.
no intelligence.no this and that.wadsoever.

i dream of a world without me.
cos everyone will be so happy.
i hope wishes do come true.
whether mine comes true or not doesnt matter.
i just hope that wishes come true for those i love.
and for those who loves me.
cos im incapable of giving love.and happiness.
im nothing.i shld just be reduced to ashes.
and burn in hell.and disappear into the thin air.

there will always be someone better than me out there.
im nothing special.im just a fucked-up bitch
who seriously isnt worth the gift of life.

this is my simple wish.simplest it can already be.
for me to disappear and for all to be happy.

im pmsing.dont bother about me.cos im not worth it.
hurt me if u all can.so what if i break.so what if im crushed.

cos im nothing.SO WHAT.
i never want to be here.ever again.

I danced.I sang.
10:17 AM

Monday, July 25, 2005

The Notebook

when can i ever find the one who will write a story about us.
to tell everyone how great our love was.
to tell everyone how much he loves me.
when can i ever find the one who will read me our story
day after day even though he knows i will not rmb anything when im old.

when can i ever find the one who will sacrifice everything for me.maybe not everything.
when can i ever find the one who will love me for everything i am.
when can i find the one who will tell me that he's afraid that he will not see ume again.
when can i find the one who will bring me to green green pasture.and the blue blue sky.
just me and you.
when when when.

maybe not in this lifetime.maybe the next.maybe never.

the simple girl with the simple wish____ling.

I danced.I sang.
4:43 AM

Friday, July 22, 2005

hai.tired.
so much to study.yet so little time.
played too much.slacked too much.
i guess i wont get a place in local u alr.
hai.

I danced.I sang.
9:08 AM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

The most beautiful love of all

is to continue loving a person

even when he has passed on.

ling.

I danced.I sang.
8:22 AM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

yay!! darlingggggg MR Raj. TOO BAD I WASNT THERE!